Luisa Collins.Photo: Luisa Collins/instagram

Luisa Collins

“I know I’m weird, I know this isn’t normal but when Madrono had to be PTS due to melanomas (cancer) I was shattered,” Zissman wrote on Instagram, sharing a video of herself seeing Madrono for the first time since he was preserved.

“I can’t describe the overwhelming heartbreak when Madrono died I spent a week in bed and got stress induced vertigo 🙈 (pathetic I know),” she continued.

“Seeing him again today was so incredible,” she said. “He’s perfect, his kind eyes are exactly the same, the little swirls in his coat, his beautiful mane all so perfect. Thank you@simon_the_stuffaand your team. You really have made me so happy! (Even though I’m ugly crying).”

In another post, Zissman said that she was feeling “very emotional” about being reunited with Madrono.

“You’re home now ❤️🙏🏻😢,” she wrote alongside several photos of the horse. “My beautiful Madrono. He is the most beautiful, majestic, stunning horse of a lifetime.”

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“Thank you@simon_the_stuffayou have captured everything about him so perfectly,” she added. “Feeling very emotional 🥺😍.”

Zissman, who regularly posts about her horse riding on social media, shared aheartbreaking tribute to Madronowhen he died in December 2019.

“My heart is broken. RIP Madrono, you were simply one in a trillion,” she wrote. “I’m sorry I couldn’t do anymore for you. For 4years we have battled your melanomas and although I knew this day would come one day, I didn’t quite believe it. You’ve been the best horse ever for nearly 6years. So many amazing happy memories. I can’t believe it. Heartbroken doesn’t come close. 💔💔💔 thank you for being the best ever 💔💔💔”

She’s posted several throwbacks with the horse in the months since, revealing that Madrono was ready for pickup from Wilson in March.

“I’m scared to see him think I’ll cry for days 😥” shewrote on Instagramat the time.

source: people.com